So for my b-day (the 31st) I get to sit around while my mom gets her breaks done, her nails done, and maybe even her hair done. If we have time after all of that I might get to see Monsters vs. Aliens in 3D and might get to go to dinner but it all depends on how long everything else takes. I'm not big on b-day but thats because it seems that every year people (like mom) is always doing something else so I get stuck at home waiting around just to find out nothings going to happen anyways. I think I'm just going to to tell her nevermind this year because I rather know right away that nothings going to happen instead of waiting around again.

So once again my plans for starting hormones have fallen through. I just want to start so I can get better but gezz....

Okay so I wanted to post a few of the poems I've written lately because I think their actually good.


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So I keep dreaming about my class field trip this up and coming Thursday the 19th for one of my college fashion classes. What we are doing is going to one store for males and two stores for females and maybe one make-up store most likely. And see here is the problem since I'm teacher is not all there shes been telling the class I'm a girl so now the whole class thinks that, well I maybe a bio girl but I AM A MAN so I'm freaking out that when we get there and the guys look for clothes that would fit their body type that I wont about able to do it and the teacher (and students) will be expecting my to look for women clothes I AM NOOOOOOOT okay with that at all. And I don't even wanna get started on going to the make-up store. I really don't think this is going to end well.


"With so little sleep
At least you'd think I'd find some peace in my dreams
In my dreams
But my mind still winds up on the same thing
The same scene
The same themes" PowerSpace.

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I made an appointment to start up on hormones on Feb 20th I can't wait whether I get to start them that day or not its no big just cuz now I know its going to happen, Yes I can't. Oh a suck yer note my binder fucking sucks I have to get a new one but I'll most likely be able to so I just have to remind myself that I will get one. I FUCKING HATE shower day ugh thats all I have to say about that.

I really need to get back to using this more, Brit get on me about that.

Feel I like I need to stop, it's the responsible thing to do but then I'm just back to square one hhhh this is going to kill me.....

House

Backstreet Boys

Good Charlotte



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I know it's been a long time since I've updated but I just havn't been doing so well mentaly latly but I'm on my break now and my new college classes wont start till the 8th so I hope I'll be better by then and I'll only be going one day a week this time and best of all the the classes are art so that something to look forwrad to. On another note yestreday was horable for some resaon mom felt the need to call me by my female name every other word she said that REALLY didn't help my mood it made things wrose, because I thought things were getting better with my name since she started tell Ean that I was changing my name but of course mom just reverts back FUCK I HATE IT!!

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idk if its my PMS or if I'm really just that bothered by never being invited to things or what but I'm still pretty fucking upset about this

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Lisa Edelstein

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So do any of you remember when a while ago when I was having nose bleeds all the time will damnit its started up again, I have one yeastreday and Im having one right now ugh.

someone broke into my moms car yestreday. shatring the back windshelled and that will cost her $1,000, they almost sucssfuly riped out the passenger side door handle with could cost up to $1,000 -2,000 and they fucked up all three locks and eack loak cost $900.

So I start my first day of college tomorrow hopefully it'll be cool.

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So I start art school on the 15th I can't wait and thats a first.

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